It's such a depressing thing for me to know in the morning, once i open my eyes, i see that the sky is bright, not dark. Indicates that it's passed 7am and i'm freaking late. Being late is such a annoyance to me now, than it used to be. I wouldn't even want to go to school when i know i'm late, but what else could i do, every lesson is precious to me now. I cant even afford to miss one lesson because in that 50mins, the teachers talks about  a lot of stuff, and i'll be missing them out if i don't attend class.

Cried so many times today in school, i mean, a lot a lot. 
When Ms Wong came over to me in the morning at parade square, kind of teared but sucked it in.
During Bio lesson pouring out to Yvette, and then Anna.
When I spoke to Ms Lim about the detention and extra lesson crash.
When I looked for Mr Shafie and got shouted at.
When Ms Wong spoke to me again.
When Ms Lim spoke to me thereafter.
Going back class from general office during lunch
In class.
Starting POA lesson
Mid of POA lesson, twice.
ending of POA lesson.
End of POA lesson when Ms Lim canceled the extra lesson which made me cry for nothing at alllllll.
Thinking about stressful syf and studies clash. 

I mean, look, dont even count how many times i teared or cried.
Afraid that the slight depression is gonna come back to haunt me. 
I dont want.
I want to change.
But no one's there to guide me.
So how ?


I cant even control whether my ears are gonna hear the alarms in the morning